Idk I'm turning 30 next year, meaning I'm full on adulting despite what I feel like and its been like 30000 years since the last journal. Its actually pretty cool to have text written by younger me to look back on, I suppose that's what people with diaries feel like.
Funnily enough the day I decided to look back at my stuff is coincidentally 10 years from that one funny journal. I guess its time to review what the younger me said to the even younger me. Enjoy |D
Meet my younger self from three years ago By dragoonwys Published: Sep 8, 2013
The old journal was kinda stretching my page so here's a new one. XD It's a meet your younger self challenge, find a journal or comment you wrote a few years back and laugh at how much you changed since then. YAY School holidays by *dragoonwys, Sep 5, 2010, 3:30:55 AM
Bwahahahaha!!! My test are finally over and the school holidays are here, now I can use my computer and ps2 until they explode(hope it doesn't). Well at least now I can catch up on my drawings and games( I just bought back kingdom hearts, coz I didn't have it even though I already played kingdom hearts II.... building a gummi ship it so much more complicated in kingdom hearts). The North American release of Kingdom Hearts Birth by Sleep is out! (spoiler warning) I know there's a new optional boss in the game that uses blue, Ethereal Blade-like weapons and wears the organization coat. The identity of him is still unknown, I wonder who it is. Maybe it's Xehanort, it can't possibly be Xemnas coz he didn't exist at that time.</i> __________________________
Seriously wys from 3 years ago? You actually typed your mad scientist laugh in your text and placed to be confirmed info in there even though it's half true in the future...... I can't blame you for not knowing the existence about plz icons and coding back then though, you gotta thank the people you met in chatroom for that when the time comes for you. Anyways lots of love and coffee from your Collage self, Im sure our Adult self would most probably laugh at us when she sees this some years in the future. Till then happy SoCing 
XD LOL little did you know. Wys from 10 years ago, that you'd end up type laughing like a maniac in text again. At this time we already moved on from DA and then Skype and then now it's Discord. Which Discord unfortunately doesn't have the rich wealth of free plz icons dA had, everything is behind a nitro paywall. Though, I've gotta admit that I did upload a few of the important plzs onto our home server of course for nostalgia sakes. I'm sure you can guess a few of them since you are me.
It was Xehanort after all but actually plot twist, ALL of org 13 are Xehanort PFFFFFFF- Kingdom hearts 3 was uh, an experience LOLOLOL I still had fun with it tho, I just want to rewrite some parts sometimes, especially with how they dealt with our poor fav seasalt trio reunion. Still gonna buy KH4 when it ever comes out tho XD
Indeed I'm laughing at you young babies XD
Your 30 - 1 year old self is drinking more coffee than ever and is stressed a lot being a professional freelance artist despite actually earning money from it. Oh did you know? You actually did end up being a programmer in the end, some what. I actually learnt to code online and now know JS, HTML and CSS. All just because I finally got off my butt to start making a serious rpgmaker game like two? months ago. What game it is? You'd be surprised that its a game that's technically featuring your very own newly made ultraman power ranger hero type OCs. That's right, we ended up going back to our childhood the older I get AHAHAHAHAHAHAH! I think despite being tired though, you'd be happy to know that we are still buddies with Aeal. The SoCing is still going strong even if slow, Mavis got rebooted very nicely, actually everyone got rebooted into a new world since everyone who used to rp left. Actually, backtracking a little, that game is also a shared project with her, lore wise her characters and yours are on the same planet, you just own your own chunk of the world.
Hopefully I can get the game out before the next 3 years pass again. Time seems to go by at 10 times the speed now, I blink and its a week XDDDDD....|D yeah, I'm mentally tired but I'm happy enough. Idk what future wys has to say about me and us, but she better be in a better state than I am when she reads this LOL
Random character detail QnA
Describe their preferred full course meal. (appetizer, main dish, dessert)
Mavis: Human meat *slapped * jk x'DD
Vegetable salad, the entire pot of fish (red meat if cooked by family) pottage and a tall stack of buttered toast, anything light and sweet like sponge cakes or pudding.
Ira: Technically doesn't need to eat but okay lol-
Crunchy biscuits and cheese, grilled steak topped with thick black pepper gravy, lots of warm fruity mead
Basim: Dried fruit slice and berry assortment, meat slices and rice bowl with a side of clear mushroom soup, any cold dessert and tea
Now describe them AS the full course meal!
Mavis: Assorted narrow strips of toast topped with sour cream powder or cinnamon, seasoned baked potato stuffed with cheese and finely diced meat chunks buried under a mountain of steamed vegtables as if to pass it as vegetarian, flower water flavored milk jelly cubes decorated with edible petals
Ira: Lightly seasoned crispy potato slices, assorted barbeque meat platter stuffed to the brim with steaks and cuts dripping with juices, fluffy chocolate cake with strawberry and vanilla cream
Basim: Mildly burnt fried vegetable dumplings, traditional mutton kebab with garlic butter and spicy sauce dips, red tea ice cream topped with fruit and honey drizzle
Ira: He thought Mavis was sort of Saria when he first met her which was why he decided to tag along for the time, just to clarify.
Basim: He picked up his adoration for cats after he was crippled, they kept him company most of the time.
cause who else Im gonna tag at this day 
RP Comfort Meme
Okay so taged me for this, let's jam!
RP Comfort Meme
A valuable meme for any role-player!
Come display your comfort levels so your role-play partners are aware of what they can do, and of what they should avoid! A healthy relationship between role-play partners is the key to a good time!
While this meme shows the basics, please remember to communicate with your role-play partners!
= Yay / Preferred
= Nay / Nyope
= Depends on the circumstances (explanation follows)
RP Basics
Locations :
I am comfortable doing:
Comment : If it's playful banter cause it's your character's reaction to the thing in the pic, sure! If it's an actual rp, please don't cause if you haven’t noticed it gets really squished comments on the page and I get annoyed when I see that.
Chats : Totally fine with this. Though I am scattered busy as of recent so I usually drop in for planned ones only since it was noted before hand.
Notes : Sure, though it's been a long time since I had rp notes anymore lol
Forum : Never rped in a forum before but Im pretty sure it's like notes. So I'm fine with it too.
Skype : Absolutely, even more than chat cause this one BEEPS.*SNORTS*
Google Docs : Same as forums, never did it but pretty sure it's like notes.
Participants :
I am comfortable with:
One on one role plays : Go for it! It might be a little short if it’s just a meet and greet rp though since there’s nothing much to do and the characters don't know each other yet, a planed plot one would be useful if it was like that.
Up to three people : Narly size for a nice rp!
Up to four people : Still Narly!
Five or more people : Still okay, will be a little confused sometimes if it’s more than five so it’s best if you just ping me if your post has something to do with my characters.
As big as possible: Usually these types of rps are ball/party rps and would end up breaking into any of the above rps anyway cause natural rule of grouping, so if it’s like that okay *shrugs* If you’re talking about a boss battle rp where everyone's posts count, count me out LOL I can’t read all that.
RP Style : (Taken from Kipyo)
I am comfortable with:
Lit: 8D I love this, *breaks glass* another
Script: I love this too, though of course if it’s a drama rp full of character dev I don’t think just a short “Suddenly she realized she missed him.” would cut it for the feels, pacing you know lol.
Post Length :
I usually write about:
One or two sentences: Like I said in script above. For small joke banter or light rp sure cause it's fun like that, but for drama rps, I'll give you more than just one tiny sentence LOL
One or two paragraphs: This is what I usually do! (PS: I'm thinking of decently sized paragraphs of more or less 1/3 of a page)
Two to five paragraphs: If I have more than one character or if I'm controlling a magnificent AoE boss or setting.
More than five paragraphs: Same as above and depends on how many people I'm replying to.
A few pages worth: I don't think I have ever typed a few pages worth in an RP. But I guess since I write stuff on my own outside I can do this under the right situation lol
I am comfortable role-playing with people who write:
One or two sentences: Same as my feelings about one liners above XD
One or two paragraphs:
Two to five paragraphs:
More than five paragraphs:
A few pages worth.: I really would like to see anyone try if they get the op to do so LOL
Role-play Requests :
I like getting requests from:
Anyone and everyone at any time! Only from people of the RP groups Im in, why? Cause quality control huehuh!
When I ask for role-plays. This, though as of recent I'm busy enough to be selective to only ask roleplay stuff with couch pizza buddies cause I know we mesh well.
From friends and acquaintances. Go ahead! But please note it's not your fault if I turn it down if it's an rp that came up suddenly, blame my life schedule.
From friends only. Does this even need to be here, just bury me with your requests already.
Corrections : (Taken from Kipyo)
I'm comfortable in being corrected when:
I missed something in your/someone else's post: Please do this, my brain isn't word savy and I don't score 100% on my English tests.
I missed something about your/someone else's character: Just do it omg.
Whether (....) is realistic/factual: I have a talking walking armor man who's soul is stuck in a sword, you can see the amount of ducks I give to realism. But yes and no, yes when I stab something in the wrong place and apparently it's fatal in RL or in your race info or if this flower doesn't grow in this season, please correct me cause I am not a doctor/scientist/biologist/botanist etc. If you are trying to 'fix' they way my magic works though, please don't lol. My magic is my magic. XDD
Expectations : (Taken from Kiypo too)
I expect my RP partner to:
Have read my character app before we RP:
NOT read my character app at all before we RP:
Read as much of my character app as is reasonable to go on before we RP:
Read more of my character app as it becomes relevant/necessary:Eh as long as you know how my character looks like, how tall they are and what powers do what, I'm pretty chill do what you will. 
I do kinda enjoy when someone brings something my character is allergic to and cause them to swell up hilariously all because they didn't know.
The only exception is that if we agreed if your character is supposedly close buds with mine from the get go without rp, I would think reading is a compulsory thing don't ya think? LOL
Romantic Relationships
** Important: Communication is the key to a real life relationship, it shouldn't be abandoned for a fictional one either! Be sure to talk to your partners when considering romance!
Shipping :
I am comfortable shipping my characters:
Our character know each other deeply.
Our character know each other deeply, and I know I can trust the role-player.
At the first sign of flirting! Only if the role-player and I plan it.
It depends on the character.
By default, I only ship with buddies cause by the time anything like a ship even would cross my mind, we would have been rping for quite an amount of time before or have known each other through net/in person for longggg. Also I have a number of flirty characters, and I don't think that everyone who flirts is asking to be shipped. There is the character trope called 'the playboy' you know.
If you want to ship with my characters:
Talk to me about it from the start.
Talk to me about it once our characters know each other.
Talk to me about it once they both have some feelings for each other.
Talk to me about it when they finally decide that want to go beyond hugging.
Two words: Character dev. My characters aren't on a tinder page LOL you can't just go swipe go on them once you see their pic on your phone.
If you think they have some chemistry going on, go ahead and ask me about it. Cause I will take forever to say "You know, they feel like a ship *wink wink blink*" Even if I feel like it can work lol
Speed :
When shipping my characters, I like the romance to happen:
Swift as lightening!
Fast, but not super fast.
Happens in about three months.
Slow and steady wins the race.
Slugs know what's up!
My relationships know no speed. They happen if they happen.
Again, character dev, it happens when it happens. And when it does it will be fluffy.
Smut :
When my characters gets intimate, I prefer:
To skip the act entirely.
To write the build up, but skip the act.
To write the act only if it is very special, but otherwise skip it.
To write the act all the way through.
|D Idk how to write smut lol, so I don't cause I get the feeling it would sound as bad as that 50 shades of grey book people laugh at. But doesn't mean I'm uncomfortable with it if my rp partner can write it.
Romantic Artwork :
When it comes to artwork depicting our relationship please:
Do not post it at all without talking to me.
Post it if it is cuddles and hugs.
Post it if it is kisses.
Post it if it is much more. (Unless idk who you are, which means it can't be helped)
Do not post it at all if it depicts sexual acts! (Unless idk who you are, which means it can't be helped)
Do not post it where I can see it, but draw what you like!
If our characters are already in a relationship, post as many cuddly pics as you want I don't care and I like when surprises like that turn up in my inbox. For NSFW I would very much like you to show it to me first in PM LOL
Also as a comic artist, there is no escaping from the rule of 34, if it's out there, there will be porn of it. I would actually be amused one day if I find my characters in different levels of undress drawn by someone idk who is it and it's out of my knowlage.
But for RP etiquette sake, if you are currently in the same rp group as someone but never talked to them, just don't self ship your characters with the other *SNORTS*
Dramatics
** Important: Always be sure to communicate with your partner individually if you think you are about to go outside their comfort zones even just the slightest bit!!
Violence :
When it comes to violent situations, I am comfortable with:
No violence at all!
I'm fine with verbal arguments!
Some violence, like a paper cut, or an accidental elbow to the face.
Mild violence, such as punching, kicking, hair pulling.
Violence, such as stabbings.
Beyond violence, such as torture and more.
VIOLENCEEEEEE! EXPLOSUNSSSSS! MASS DESTRUCTION! But no grapes please. |D
If you are going to do something violent, please:
Don't do it at all.
Talk to me about it first.
Surprise me!
As long as no one on my side is dying and permanently crippled unless I wanted them to be. Go wildddd!
Dramatic Artwork :
Do not post any dramatic scenes that happened between our characters.
Talk to me about it before posting!
Post what you like!
I like surprises of art of stuff that happened or symbolically happened or just legit between our characters, do as you will buds, I trust you. 8D
Other
Physical Contact : (Taken from Kipyo)
I'm cool with my characters being touched if:
Formalities / Ordinary gestures / Something that usually happens (such as hand shakes)
Nothing dramatic (sexual / violent / inappropriate) As always no grapes or anything like that.
If my kid dislikes/hates yours, that doesn't mean I hate you, too! 8'D Why would I hate the player if my character is a boob to theirs. It's part of the fun. 8'D Unless the player did something bad themselves, their characters and them are different entities and not to be mixed up.
Back in Malaysia
I have so many nice memories from being out of the country but I have to return here and already safely did.That is all. Have some pizza you lovely peeps and have a nice day~~
OC Facts Meme - Zariri, Durma, Ira
for Ira XD 
- Ira suffers from knee pains when he was alive as a human. While it wasn't severe, it was constantly irritating whenever he has to stand or walk for a long time. And although he is free from feeling any pain ever since losing his body, the habit of sitting down and rubbing his knees after a good while is still there.
- Ira is was married man, not officially on papers though. He and his wife didn't have an actual marriage declaration, both sides saw no need for it as long as they knew who their partner was. This was also the reason why Saria was placed in an orphanage for a short time and wasn't instantly redirected to Ira as he was not documented as next of kin.
- He has no recollection on how his dead body was moved into the underground tunnels that Mavis found him in. He doesn't even remember transferring his Contract/soul into the sword stuck in his chest at all.
- After slumbering for more than a thousand years, one of the first reason Ira decided to help younger Mavis out of the tunnels back when they met was because she bears striking resemblance to Saria. Which honestly shocked him as the last time he saw Saria she was lying dead in front of him.
- While Ira doesn't use many types of magic, he knows quite a number of them and he knows how to cast and prepare all the mandatory spells or wards that a guild master of a Contractor guild is supposed to know.
- The Ira that everyone sees, aka the suit of armor; is just a suit of armor he's materialized with his Mana Molding and channeled a Mental projection of himself through it allowing his voice to come out from it as if it was talking. This isn't a skill that he only learned after dying but he has been using a trick like this since he was alive.
- The blue cape that Ira wears is Aran Tribe's 'Master robe'. All the guilds have one but so far only Aran Tribe Guild Masters have been known to wear them on a daily basis by choice instead of just official events. The one that Ira wears now is just an imitation though. The real one is on his skeleton in the tunnels where Mavis found him in. A Master robe is a piece of fabric that has been imbued with purely condensed Mana, passed down from one Guild Master to the next. Due to this it is highly durable, tough and it can change forms to suit the new owner's liking (mostly only during the first time it was hand down to the new owner because changing it's form and shape isn't as convenient as it looks), like from a cape to a long coat.
- Ira never knew his parents, but he had plenty of parent figures growing up in Aran Tribe so he had a good idea what to do and what he wanted if had a real one. And extra tidbit, opposed what audiences would think from just looking at how he sticks around Mavis almost 24/7 back in the day before they rebuilt Aran Tribe. He actually wasn't a 'always around' parent when he was looking after Saria, in fact he was pretty busy much of the time like he is now. Night time once the moon is way up in the sky was one of his favorite times because he would normally be done with his guild master duties and could get some time to talk to his daughter about her day.
Also tagged by
for Durma~
- Durma is loosely based off my Skyrim Orc Durga Mashnar. Despite her being based off Durga, they are two completely separate beings and share no relations to each other outside of the fact that they share a full name (Which by the way, Durma never goes by the name Durga to reinforce the difference between these two entities) and are similar in concept.
- Durma's irises actually come in the shape of a plus looking star symbol <(+)> <-- that's the eye since it's harder to spot in actual pics. It's an earthshifter troll racial trait.
- There may or may not be some hint of She-hulk in there when I was designing her. Her long wavy hair is a shout out to that and not actually on the original Durga. The Sensational She-hulk is one of my fav comic book series.
- She was actually supposed to have green blood, but I kept forgetting to color the inside of her mouth green when it did show, it's a reflex to color it fleshy pink okay. Now I just stuck with the fact that the pigment in her skin is just some sort of green melanin and that it's because of that that the troll race's skin is different shades of green. She isn't super fair for an earthshifter troll but definitely on the just nicely tan side on how green she could be, the super fair ones tend to look grey with a hint of green.
- On a scale of serious Main to gag character CPL, the fact that she was based off a self insert game character meant that personally she stands more on the gag character side on the Dwys character creation scale. And since she didn't have time to develop and slip into my more serious side of the scale like Ira who also started out as more of a gag character. Meaning she is as invincible as a character from an ACME roadrunner show and nothing can bring her down physically or emotionally.
- Okay she really isn't that impenetrable emotionally, there was this one point I wanted her to get trapped underground again and just lose it but whoopsyday group was gone so fast like a straw house on fire. Some out of topic stuff AealZX did was fun to look at and I really want to use her again for something, as much as she hasn't done enough for me to take her seriously I honestly like her. I have a good feeling about her, she could live up to deserve the long comic strips I made for Mavis for all these years, that's just how good the feeling I have about her is, just gotta find something to sit down seriously to do.
- Not counting my more beast and creature looking races in my head, Durma is the tallest female human proportioned I have.
- And before anyone going on how I draw female earthshifter trolls like Durma to look like hot amazonian super models compared to the males, jokes on you, the males of her race also come as fit and human looking as her, even if a bit more grungy and have a small crown horns coming out of their foreheads. There are also some more traditional chubby looking trolls, but yeah the trolls come in all body types as well, Durma so happened to be of the amazonian build.
LOL got taged by fluffy AealZX. So ya want ta have a CT train going huh, sure thing let's go challenge excepted, here's a few thing about Zari
Rules:
1) Post these rules.
2) Post 8 facts about your character.
3) Tag 8 other characters.
4) Post their names along with their creators' avatars.
- The family who adopted Zari consisted of a swordsman, a monk and a lesbian mage couple. All of them form this sort of wandering adventurer unit that also gets paid by a village to keep the roads clear of stray monsters kinda thing.
- Bochor her chocobo is more of an uncle who is an animal than a mount really. She goes to him for advice a lot nowadays cause her family is MIA at the moment, isn't it sad Zari ahahah *slapped*
- Back on the topic of her non animal family, they usually wander around places
grinding for expbeating up monsters while she stayed at home. She used to follow them but after that one time of having their butts brutally kicked, she decided to stay home and craft armors and weapons instead, only coming out if she had errands to do, till recently that is. - Meeting a real Gilgamesh is her dream because of the legends she heard of him collecting all sorts of weapons.
- She has a bit of height envy, mainly because her height has been spawning jokes since forever within her adopted family. She knows they were not serious but it doesn't stop her from wishing that these taller races become short for the day so she could tease them the same way sometimes.
- In character reason, she wears short bloomer pants almost all the time because short pants made her feel taller. But really, the main reason I gave her those was because I always wanted a character who wore them and she fits it perfectly *SNORTS*
- It's kinda why I want her to be a dragoon, reasoning is quite obvious if you haven't figured it out yet
*stares at username* In character reason, she's so short and most of the time she can get easily lost in a crowd, it's in her subconscious to find higher places if she got separated from people. Dragoons have cool jump skills and she wonders if she jumps high enough she can spot her family members. - She can hold weapons much larger than herself no problem, its this unofficial sub-skill she got from crafting for races larger than her. But as far as handling goes, she could only carry it and check for bents and dents, using it effectively is out of the question.
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And done- and as for tagging
Ahahahaah- I really don't have that many people to tag that hasn't already been. BUT since it's been QUITE a while.........! 
how is Godiva doing 